Iru: do not step on the pave road

as of me and my colored hair. i find myself crawling with the birds as they soar over me to the sky. still i cant seem to find the ladder to continue to clime. my baby Iru ill stand still till she comes home. dont worry all houses look the same but the doors have symbols that will lead you to me. when i wake up in the morning the sun shines in my direction, i find myself falling further into a guilt trip just before night. when these worries hit me like a wave all at once, one after another. i find myself flawless only in my body, i sometimes find myself weak. my baby Iru share this drink with me. choke my sorrows down with me. we do it so well. share these waves with these birds. ill comfort you home, with a trap laying beside your bed. you will be mine forever. till this is over, ill climb to heaven where i find myself crumbling again. not enough attention for my enemies to continue following me. i have my head in the sand as i hide from my own shadows. continue to change from one set to another. the clouds hover over me, we fall further in love. my priest, my father. what should i do? several battles and the war is yet not over. bleeding and blood shed? my enemies hide all around but they linger in my shadows, and i cant find the glitch. my father, my priest, my baby Iru. where can we go? when will i die? i find myself faulter as i drown in these waves. as the birds fly high over me. they lay nests in my hair. telling me that i cant make it out of here. i fall to me knees. no help. no honor. looking high i still only see the sky. looking down all i see is death. not much hope there. my baby Iru guide me through. i feel the weakness leaving my body. its not often i wake up and i dont know who i am. i find myself changing through the night. i drown myself. i kill myself a little bit every day. these birds are me, this shadow is me. the sky is high. i trip as i seem to fall my knees. over and over again, all i think about in my head, is pain. trap in the heart of all attacks. my body is rotting as i walk on. my baby Iru. where are you?